Everything that kills me makes me feel alive. |
Name: | Reese Starr |
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Gender: | Female |
Place of Birth: | Hollywood, CA |
Age: | 19 |
Race: | Mage |
Faction: | Traditions |
Tradition: | Sahajiya (CoX) |
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Affinity Sphere: | Mind |
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Occupation: | College/Drummer |
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My Rock: | Ivan |
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None: | N/A |
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Portrayed by: | Macy Kate |
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Ivan: Mine. Always.
Coming…
Surrender
I hear you taunting me
The bottle of pills in the drawer
The bag of grass in my purse
The line of coke on the table
The pint glass at the pub
The naked flesh in my bed
I hear you calling
The open window
Daring me to jump
- How long do old memories last? Why can't I forget it? Why can't I admit it? There ain't no future in the past - Vince Gill
- I used to think a drug addict was someone who lived on the far edges of society. Wild-eyed, shaven-headed and living in a filthy squat. That was until I became one.
- Reality is a crutch for people who can't cope with drugs. ~Lily Tomlin
- Drugs may be the road to nowhere, but at least they're the scenic route. ~Author Unknown
- I've never had a problem with drugs. I've had problems with the police. ~Keith Richards
- I don't like people who take drugs. Cops and Customs agents, for example. ~Author Unknown
♫ Goo Goo Dolls - Iris ♫ | Ivan | I'd give up forever to touch you 'cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be, and I don't wanna go home right now. I don't want the world to see me, 'cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken.. I just want you to know who I am. |
♫ Joe Walsh - One Day at a Time ♫ | Well you know, I was always the first to arrive at the party, ooh! And the last to leave the scene of the crime. Well it started with a couple of beers, and it went I don't know how many years, like a runaway train headed for the end of the line. Well I finally got around to admit that I might have a problem. But I thought it was just too damn big of a mountain to climb. Well I got down on my knees and said 'Hey!' 'I just cant go on livin' this way!' Well I finally got around to admit that I was a problem. When I used to put the blame on everybody's shoulders but mine. All the friends I used to run with are gone, Lord, I hadn't planned on livin' this long. I have to learn to live my life one day at a time! It was something it was too blind to see, I got help from something greater than me… And I have to learn to live my life one day at a time! |
♫ Saliva - Rest in Pieces ♫ | Look at me, my depth perception must be off again. Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did. It has not healed with time. It just shot down my spine. Would you find it in your heart to make this go away and let me rest in pieces? Look at me, my depth perception must be off again. You got much closer than I thought you did. I'm in your reach… You held me in your hands. |
♫ Linkin Park - Leave Out All the Rest ♫ | I dreamed I was missing. You were so scared. But no one would listen. 'Cause no one else cared. After my dreaming. I woke with this fear. What am I leaving when I'm done here? So if you're asking me I want you to know. When my time comes forget the wrong that I've done. Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. Don't resent me and when you're feeling empty. Keep me in your memory. Leave out all the rest. Leave out all the rest. Don't be afraid. I've taken my beating. I've shared what I've made. I'm strong on the surface not all the way through. I've never been perfect. But neither have you. So if you're asking me I want you to know. Forgetting all the hurt inside. You've learned to hide so well. Pretending someone else can come. And save me from myself. I can't be who you are. |
♫ Thriving Ivory - Angels on the Moon ♫ | Do you dream that the world will know your name? So tell me your name. Do you care about all the little things? Or anything at all? I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside. I wanna feel. I wanna sunburn, just to know that I'm alive. To know I'm alive. Don't tell me if I'm dying. 'Cause I don't wanna know. If I can't see the sun, Maybe I should go. Don't wake me 'cause I'm dreaming of angels on the moon. Where everyone you know. Never leaves too soon. Do you believe, in the day that you were born? Tell me do you believe? Do you know, that every day's the first of the rest of your life? You can tell me all your thoughts. About the stars that fill polluted skies. And show me where you run to. When no one's left to take your side. But don't tell me where the road ends. 'Cause I just don't wanna know. No I don't wanna know. Don't tell me if I'm dying. |
♫ Howie Day - Collide ♫ | I'm quiet you know. You make a first impression. I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind. Even the best fall down sometimes. Even the stars refuse to shine. |
♫ Linkin Park - Iridescent ♫ | You were standing in the wake of devastation. You were waiting on the edge of the unknown. With the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now. You were there, impossibly alone. Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? You build up hope, but failure's all you've known. Remember all the sadness and frustration.. And let it go, let it go |
♫ Casting Crowns - Does Anybody See Her? ♫ | She is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction. She is trying, but the canyon's ever widening.. In the depths of her cold heart. So she sets out on another misadventure just to find.. She's another two years older and she's three more steps behind. Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Or does anybody even knows she's going down today? Under the shadow of our steeple. With all the lost and lonely people. Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me. Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? She is yearning for shelter and affection.. that she never found at home. She is searching for a hero to ride in. To ride in and save the day. |
Grandmother: Lila Starr - Gramma is Reese's guardian. She's sweet yet firm. As long as Reese is behaving, she trusts her, but after the fiasco at the car wash, there's a tentative bit of wary watchfulness. Of course, she had been defending someone, but she could have avoided the fight all together, she had been told. Her grandmother is old school. Girls don't fight, they leave that to the men. ♫ Dolly Parton - Eagle When She Flies ♫She's been there, God knows, she's been there. She has seen and done it all.. She's a woman, she know how to dish it out or take it all. Her heart's as soft as feathers still she weathers stormy skies. And she's a sparrow when she's broken, but she's an eagle when she flies. A kaleidoscope of colors. You can toss her around and round. You can keep her in you vision. But you'll never keep her down. She's a lover, she's a mother, she's a friend and she's a wife. And she's a sparrow when she's broken, but she's an eagle when she flies. Gentle as the sweet magnolia. Strong as steel, her faith and pride. She's an everlasting shoulder, she's the leaning post of life. She hurts deep and when she weeps, she's just as fragile as a child. And she's a sparrow when she's broken. But she's an eagle when she flies. |
Comedienne: Lucya Stone - Reese and her mother aren't best friends, but they don't hate each other. Completely. She respects her mother but she doesn't want to follow her path in life, despite her mothers urging. Now that Reese is with her grandmother, she hears less and less from her parents. ♫ Alanis Morissette - Perfect ♫ Sometimes is never quite enough. If you're flawless, then you'll win my love. Don't forget to win first place. Don't forget to keep that smile on your face. Be a good girl. Try a little harder. You've got to measure up. And make me prouder. How long before you screw it up? How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up? With everything I do for you the least you can do is keep quiet. Be a good girl. You've gotta try a little harder. That simply wasn't good enough to make us proud. I'll live through you. I'll make you what I never was. If you're the best, then maybe so am I. Compared to him compared to her. I'm doing this for your own damn good. You'll make up for what I blew. What's the problem…why are you crying? Be a good girl. Push a little farther now. That wasn't fast enough. To make us happy. We'll love you just the way you are. If you're perfect. |
Actor/Director: Jagger Starr - She saw an attempt on his life and it scared her so badly she still has nightmares about it, and part of that is because the man killed himself in front of her young, impressionable self. Reese loves her father, certainly, though they are slowly drifting apart. He has no time for her and hasn't for awhile now. He's still as active as ever in Hollywood, making big name films. She has separated herself from all of that.♫ Simple Plan - Perfect ♫ Hey dad look at me. Think back and talk to me. Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along. And now I try hard to make it. I just wanna make you proud. I'm never gonna be good enough for you. Can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me. 'Cause we lost it all. Nothing lasts forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late and we can't go back. I'm sorry I can't be perfect. I try not to think about the pain I feel inside. Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me now seem so far away. And it feels like you don't care anymore |
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RP Hooks
- About to attend college in a nearby town.
- Resources 5 - Poor little rich girl.
- Fame 4 - Former child star, Disney Channel, and former face for Nurture brand baby food. Her parents are famous, Actor/Director Jagger Starr who has many, many action movies under his belt. Her mother is Comedian Lucya Stone. Her grandmother, Lila Starr is a former actress from a popular daytime soap opera. Reese has been in tabloids in the company of her both her parents and her grandmother.
- Coke addict.
- Mage, Cult of Ecstasy.